Complicated Pregnancy & The Business Break-Up
I was obviously on this path with you guys and then I've just gone knocked completely off that path and I wasn't exactly ready for this baby but it's come out our way and this is how we're dealing with it so we went back in for the scan and then and the doctor scanned the brain and you could see his eyebrows was kind of going up and it was like me and Sasha were looking at each other thinking what's going on is our baby okay risk of fine motor problems um which the doctors brought up quite a few times risk of epilepsy risk of cognitive impairments risk of visual impairments um so you know you're looking at quite serious stuff really it's maybe someone's watching this podcast who's going through the same who's going through it you got me yeah so um you know obviously we're not you know I just I I feel like I'm alone but there's probably millions of people with the same problem like what I was saying earlier about you know potentially um terminating the pregnancy um I feel like we're past that now like if the doctor said to us then there's there's a sliver of Hope then we're sliding in for that for about your granny and we're gonna we're gonna have this baby and whatever it is whatever the situation is it's gonna be loved what's going on people welcome to the central Club this episode is brought to you by reinspire Printing and oh snap Cardiff and also crane locks I want to say a big special thank you to Crane locks as well for sponsoring this episode if you haven't already make sure you hit that like button subscribe to the club and hit the Bell button to be notified of future content today's guest is um it's very very special I always say it's special but this one is very special this is something that should have been done a long time ago um someone who you you know quite well um it's weird that he's back here sat here with me today um you know I told my story on the central club and and one thing we wanted to do was tell his story but even since you know he's gone away you know there's been a lot of developments in his life and he he wants to come and share that and also I think we need to set the record straight with obviously how things went and and why you know he stepped back and why obviously Tom left as well yeah you'd obviously understanding what I've got here now it's it's Luca yeah yeah what's happening yes bro oh with me it's been ages man since I've been on this podcast how long has it actually been it's been like if I if I I would I would say five months that's mad I don't know when you think yeah yeah it's probably like 32 weeks something like that no more than that yeah it was you well no well we've done the Christmas special yeah which is unbelievable yeah yeah um what was the last thing you've done so Michael O'Brien you said you didn't do which I was quite surprised about that's exactly that's when I left well that's when I stepped back yeah Michael O'Brien's because I remember I've done Tanya on my own but before that yeah I was actually supposed to come in I think for Michael yeah he was and then yeah just life I was obviously on this path with you guys and then I've just gone knocked completely off that path and life just put me in a different direction where I wasn't able to put a hundred percent into Central Club so it for me was a situation where I I couldn't I was I felt like being on the central Club I felt more of a burden than anything so yeah you said that to me a few times and it you know it was it was hurtful not hurtful it was sad to hear that and I understand because I know what you're like you're like me you have to put 100 into stuff you are like 100 dedicated all in with something and if you're not you will feel like a burden like you said I don't yeah like we're quite similar in that way I think so like I build stuff up in my head and it has to go this way it's kind of like OCD in a way in it because when it don't go that way that's when you start stressing out but then for me personally when I stress out I tend to avoid things as well do you know what I mean like if it's not bringing me Comfort then I'll just literally abandon it which is it's not a good way to live I don't think because you should be able to sort confrontation up right from the gecko or if you have any problems or any discomforts they should be sorted out straight away because what I find is if you prolong it you just you're stretching out that pain or whatever's going go do you know what I mean you're not sorting you're not so the sooner you sort it out the better really well you know I've missed you man boys I've missed you bro both I've missed him so much I terribly like we drove past him the other day and it was literally well anytime you see him it just puts a smile on your face doesn't he yeah you can spot him a mile off yeah and um yeah even when I picked him up this morning it's just just hilarious like he's yeah Lucas Luca yeah nothing's changed yeah I am I I was I was thinking as well you're not serenade the New Year by the way we're not right no I know I've missed you two guys because we we were going on you know a year of the central club and in that year we've been on such a mad journey and we've bonded together you know and it's it's a ritual if you see someone every Sunday or whatever every day of the week then you're gonna have a connection and you're driving and like even if it is for a brief time for a day or all day or yeah yeah I definitely feel like we've bonded and this is good because me and Colin wanted this exact thing we wanted to have a family the central Club needed to be a unit yeah and um at times it wasn't like that but look this needle itself is in that way now you know what I mean so yeah I genuinely believe that and that's why I said to you because you know we'll talk a bit about like obviously what happened with Tom and and with yourself and and because a lot of people probably thought that because Tom left you just left as well but I'm wearing the case there's other reasons in your life that has taken you this way yeah um and you know I've told you and I've said this and I'll always say this to you there will always be a space at the central club for you no matter no matter what do you know what I mean like if if you run me and said call listen to you know I'm free today can I come down of course you can obviously you're you made this decision which was like you know I'd rather just step away from me for now I'm not fair enough that's fair enough you know when um you know it's grown in this in this way as well you know I've been used to doing it on my own and I enjoy it but it's it's you know it's nice to have you here sometimes and and not just that like we I know what you what you enjoy making other content as well and I really want you to get back into that and do it that's exactly what I want to do man I feel like since I took my step away because obviously I still watch the central club I'm just the biggest fan so I mean um when I'm watching the podcast and I'm seeing this is you and there's a one guest or two guests I like that Dynamic and um I think the viewers do as well I think it's it's it's probably it's not it's like a better dynamic in some ways do you know what I mean yeah yeah but I did I like okay I always would have liked to have had it where if you're something serious me being as hard to get something out of and then maybe you'd be a one-on-one but if it's Andrew biggie Morris if it's someone funny or I want you there like you are the like we have a laugh and you bring up things in me which is funny and and would tell the guest as well you do have your strong points Luke 100 you know what I mean and I never ever wanted you to feel any type of way that we were trying to push you because it was and all that at all yeah hence why I'm telling you come back well like look we're on the we're on the pop show now um and I don't I want to say that I don't feel like that and if anyone's ever come messaging you because I'm like you know whatever people say to you um they obviously don't know the full truth so here I am I'm on the podcast now saying exactly how it is and I stepped away it was completely my decision yeah completely I I wasn't thrown out or do you know anything like that was No Malice we've been we've we've kept it professional we're good friends as well so it's not being yeah yeah I do look back at some episodes on I'm like [ __ ] uh look at us we're probably like bombarding the guests and it was that but there was three of us and but at the end of the day like we we knew what we were coming ourselves into when we when all three of us stepped in we said how how is this gonna work and it did work we did do we did we've done well I think for a long time you you were talking about then sometimes you know it was always good sometimes it was you know it was sometimes it was quite volatile I don't know you kind of witnessed it sometimes as well I suppose yeah obviously like it rubs off on off on you like I could I could easily just step away and just be like I'm just doing my job and come here to film but I've always been invested a little bit more than that so like if I'm hearing like squabbles and arguments I remember the classic um WhatsApp scrap which one this this yeah yeah which one this almost like broke me out I even I've said to your comes out loud bro I can't be doing this like it's just not worth it for me um but at the same time like I remember watching or listening to those WhatsApp messages on Full Speed with my misses absolutely hilarious yeah I wish we could put that out but I'll respect for Tom yeah yeah probably won't but um there were times where the messages were too long to type so you'd be voice noting each other back and forth like oh my goodness but it always it would it was never like serious like it was just you you think it was a good question yeah the passion between us both because let's let's go on to him Tom is very passionate and he's a perfectionist as well like he is he is a perfectionist but I I just think our Visions on this were too different and but like I've said in another podcast when you haven't been here and I've just said like you know like um without Tom I like I don't think this would have and we we all agree on this um it would not have kicked up the way it did we wouldn't have had the same vision there was things that he would like I would want to do and he'd be like no wait at Bay and then like we do it then and he'd be like I told you so and like I'd be like yeah you're right and I'll always respect him for that you know and how is Tom like from your perspective Tom is doing really well at that time in the central Club I think towards the end um you could see is he was taken a toll mentally with um everything he was trying to juggle in his personal life and which was obviously reflecting on the central Club so every time he had an idea for the central club that wasn't aligned with Eurovision like you were just saying he would Clash heads and then you know it gets toxic don't it you know what I mean so it's better to just shake hands and call it a day and I think Tom's like right now since he's not been on the podcast like you and obviously you speak to him you're still in contact with him he's doing really well yeah yeah I've spoken to him I've spoken to him loads but I have spoken and and he seems like he's in a good place um and yeah he was cracking up at a point as well weren't he because he did take a step back um for for many of reasons and the kids how old is he he's 24 he's 24 and like he does a lot the only like any he tries to Take On The World he tries to take on the will would you say so but yeah that's exactly what I'd say if Tom doesn't need my advice but if I was to give him some I just tell him like to slow down and just like we're always a person you know because he's always just on to the next thing and he'd say well that's why I'm gonna be able to do this and you're not but just like mature is a person just you know live life as as an everyday person you don't always have to look at the next thing enjoy the now enjoy the journey rather than just be yourself you're bang on because like this is the thing I say with Tom this is the skirt like this is the conversations we have Tom is so serious and so 100 um and he wants to be so professional and he wants to take be taken serious all the time and I just I the way I feel like is like don't grow up too fast bro yeah when when you you can you're gonna look back you you want to be 35 now okay you want to be taken serious you want to look like an adult you want to look like you're 35 now but when you're 35 and you're gonna think right I wish I weren't 35 when I was 24. do you get me you grew up way too fast because you only get one life you and you can't turn that back no amount of money I'm not saying Tom's out here for media now like no but he just he wants to be great he wants a greatness um but no amount of money can take back time it's it's weird it's a weird one in it because you know we talk about how he's always on to the next but then when it comes to the central club and I was thinking of ideas he would be the one to tell me to slow down wait wait and it's weird it's weird because he I don't know maybe it's maybe like if he has a project he will be um he takes his time with it as much as he can but if he's not done with that he's on to another project quickly I don't know his it's a bad one in it but yeah he's um is Broad and also tunnel vision so he's like chooses loads of stuff and then you can tunnel in on it yeah I think yeah I think what I found with Tom is yeah he you know when it comes he will put you put his all into something and he will take his time and he'll read into it and he'll make sure that you know he he does everything with it but if you come with an idea from that no like like there's no telling him and there's no um opposing a poet like he's he's got the he got the answer already like type of thing and then like and if you do something wrong then he then he might well not might he [ __ ] would he tell you this and sometimes I was quite offensive okay I need someone to tell me when I'm going wrong but sometimes it was like I'm [ __ ] 32 I'm not 32. I'm making a name I'm 30 years of age time like I know as well like don't speak to me like a kid and and he could get away with it we're probably eight eight eight out of ten people but there's always going to be them people who will say no mate like you know but you know even so look I I respect him um you know I wish him all the best in his in his in his life and you know what he what he's what he done here when he started like I'll always hold him in high regard for that you know yeah that's good man I've got enough respect for Tom no respect just the top there I want to say as well for myself but go on you yeah yeah nobody look there's also aside to Tom that is like really funny and charismatic and when when it worked yeah it really worked you know what I mean and that's why I just like to see more all the time because me and Dan have spent loads of time with him as well he is a laugh do you know what I mean 100 people don't see that it doesn't I think he opens the problem is I'm not letting people see that like yeah he is so tired it's so funny when he wants to be and it's like you know what this guy is alive yeah yeah he wants to be taken serious and I think that can sometimes get the better of him yeah there is one question I want to ask you though about the time situation did you ever feel like you couldn't be yourself on this podcast because of Tom being your boss um Tom being on the podcast and being my boss working you know in my day job obviously that has an impact that's going to have an impact on you all you know what I mean like you're with each other all the time and you have so many relationships you know friendly work relationship professional and you you and if you are a bit confused yeah do you know what I'm saying so sometimes at the time our relationship was confusing when we were on the podcast which made me feel maybe slightly different but since he's been off the podcast we got on like we get along like uh what's the word better yeah um and um this like him site is taking a step away and it's made our relationship better as well I think yeah that's good that's good yeah you know um when I last saw him I know I'm not I'm not going to speak for him but like he looked like he was on to another project and as he does but he looked like he was very relaxed and very chilled and knew what he wanted so that's that's good you know and I wish Tom all the best I really do um so what's what's going on in your life Luca um well then you tell the people why you stepped away in the first place and and maybe where where we're at now yeah so um it just started getting what happened was the podcast started getting really intense and I had some stuff going on in my personal life where um it was taking a lot of my time which I couldn't then put into the central club which was needed because the central Club essentially is a full-time job let's explain to people how what is it is either on a podcast because I thought it was going to be a lot easier than it [ __ ] is is it [ __ ] yeah it's not it's not really sometimes I feel guilty with you as well because you've got other jobs like they're saying your full-time job Harrison yeah and sometimes I'm like [ __ ] Annie's ringing me he should be working but he's doing central Club it's like there's a lot of work in central Club in here so yeah I probably yeah I my working hours I contribute to the central Club more than anything else um and it is it is Hardcore and it is it does get on top a bit but um I enjoy it so that's why I always end up putting it before my other work you should always enjoy enjoy your work yeah um I've done it with my work as well yeah exactly yeah so um it is it is a lot of stress because we're striving for like Perfections you know I mean and there's a big there's a big space out there that we're trying to get noticed in you know I mean YouTube for God's sake like there's millions and millions of content creators out there that we're trying to compete with yeah I think our our um unique part is the fact that we're from Cardiff and um when you look a card if there are other podcasts and stuff but there's no um big platform that's for the city like look at the bloody logo like the skyline of the city we do we you know we're doing it for Cardiff yeah yeah in a way though you could say that's tying us down but like I do think we get rich pickings of Welsh guests definitely like people want to come and share their story on the central club and we get loads of people who you'd be like but he wants to come on um and if you if we were based in Hereford or [ __ ] Bristol or something like that they probably wouldn't come on yeah so it's all worth it when we look at the people we've met you know I mean it's absolutely amazing like these are people like that you know my dad used to speak about or like I got brought up on do you know I mean the likes of Colin Jackson which should be up by now the Craig Bellamy you know I mean the list goes on like people you would see on TV when you know when you were a youngster and now you're in the same room with them conversing yeah and it's like how the [ __ ] did that just happen yeah yeah and Dan guests um you know we where's where's the T-shirt around and he has people pulling them and like oh you you watch the Santa Club no we work for it you know what I mean it's amazing you are it's good yeah we are literally uh funny when you get looks on the street and it's like oh you know who's coming I don't know Colin yeah that's an amazing feeling in it though like you know people like the fact that people are seeing the merch and they're like oh yeah before it's even out yeah yeah not even out yet yeah yeah 10 000 subscribers and we'll have it out it's gonna be out by now yeah I'd probably be up by now yeah okay by the time this video goes out yeah Colin Jackson yeah he'll pushing for us I'm telling you I can't wait man the merch like that's I can't wait for that to come out bro so obviously like we like we've had this conversation as well with ourselves but I want to know your peers and opposite uh opinion on it for the merge Central Club logo or just the skyline I like the logo at the bottom of the um hoodie yeah that was that's that's a fresh design and on the hats you know like the the brim yeah what's the hood yeah the hood of the hat so if we add hats would you just have the skylines you think yeah just the skyline um and um I I reckon both yeah a little bit of Versatility I know versatility is it versatility yeah it is versatility versatility yeah no it's it's a good thing and you know the people I have pull me is just unbelievable or crazy the fact that I've done a speech the other day in the center of and it went for my work it was as the central Club podcast I can't believe that you know politicians head of police head of Prisons and like with talking it's the central club like this [ __ ] crazy have you got footage of that I've got footage of it yeah and I'm thinking about I will put it up on the um it's probably it'll be up by now everything should be up by now um but yeah like listen like I I do think you know should I talk a bit about that like what what actually happened because I I wasn't here yeah yeah oh yeah all right I'll briefly touch on before we can go back to you um so yeah um decriminalization and the diversions so you know in Portugal and places like that you've got um you know harm reduction in these places where it's all about addiction obviously in uh trying to make the world a better place um so I got reached out by Martin Blake bro who we have interviewed uh shout out to Martin big brother and collidoscope to talk about my experiences as a drug addict um my time in prison and and with with my Runnings with the law and and what could have been done different in my life you know uh what what kind of things would have helped me um should I have went to prison did prison do the right thing for me that type of thing so I have to go there and tell my life story and then from from that then tell them what I think would work and what worked for me and what didn't work for me so I was just ranting on about the prison services and how I don't think you know a low level crime as in shoplifting anything drug related should not go to prison they should be given a chance you know when people get that criminal record it's game over people just feel like their lives are over people don't we they're not educated enough to know that even with a criminal record you can still get a job um and you know they're quick enough to just send people to jail instead of looking for other sort of help for them and that's what I was my argument was and my my speech was based around and then we had um Jason Q who was the um private police commissioner or something with Theresa May um he has a lot of run-ins with with drug he had his views on drug addiction he was very um strict on it and then he had like some sort of intervention in his life halfway through being a police officer and ended up turning around and now he's four you know trying to decriminalize it and then we had um uh David I don't know I don't want to get a surname wrong but he's another Police Commissioner politician of powers so we were the three speaking I opened the bill which was nerve-wracking as hell the whole room was full with all these important people and then at the end they asked us questions and we had like um we had someone from Portugal uh come up and answer questions we had people from prisons people from all different services and the the uh the idea I got from it is that they're trying to now do a big thing called diversion and and and what that is so you know when people get arrested they might get caught with Heroin they might get caught with something um instead of sending them to prison instead of giving them a criminal record or charging them or taking them to court they will refer them straight to a drug service now they're doing that anyway in certain places like Midlands police Cumbria even even Somerset them type of places they're trying to do it in South Wales now there have been places that have done diversion anyway but what I said was I'm more worried about people who get caught like myself for shoplifting like I got caught shoplifting and it was down to drugs but what happens if if I go down now and um I get caught arrested for shoplifting 10 shoplifts I've Got Drugs in my system will they divert that and they said that's what they're trying to do now so not just getting caught with something because after the time drug dealers don't uh drug users don't get caught with drugs because they're probably taking it they get caught stealing they get caught burgling they get caught criminal you know robbing someone and it's they're trying to now divert them crimes so if I like I said get chords I'll go in they'll see if you've been taking drugs what's your problems yet I'm addicted to how to win that's why I've done the shoplifting great instead of charging you with shoplift and potential prison we are now going to divert you to these services and that's what it was all about also trying to do harm reduction so injecting spaces places to safely inject instead of being all around the street so it was really good really interesting and it was another experience for me another tick off the box of of what I've done um since since I've seen you as well I've also um uh I've been asked to call back again to do youth workshops so that's really good and we're now in the midst of trying to take the central Club to another level with with with these type of agencies and services so everything's very exciting and uh yeah we'll just see what the next step takes us but on to you again I want to go back to you so you said you you know everything was hectic in your life yeah and and I know I even told people online yeah yeah Luke is having a baby yeah because having a baby that's that's why that's what everyone knows so how like I know you're going through some stuff are you able to share any of this yeah yeah people know the time I was away obviously there's a lot of highs and lows um so obviously one of the highs is I'm having a baby um so that's you know that's mad news because this is my first baby I've never had one before um and then there's also a lot of stresses that come with that I guess so like I'm you know I'm quite young I I wasn't exactly ready for this baby um you know with my partner I had I asked her for a baby she probably would have said shut the [ __ ] up you know when we weren't really in that part of our life but it's come our way and this is how we're dealing with it so you know we haven't got our finances uh in check or you know a place to live or anything so you know we've got all these worries on top of my head plus you know there's babies coming in so we want to like I want to just engrave the best possible life I possibly can for this child now because it's now become my number one priority like this baby I I wanna ever since I was young I've always wanted to be a good dad you know that's that's like one of my biggest goals in life I've always wanted to be a sick dad so um yeah I'm just trying to make it happen and it's like sometimes the odds are against you a bit but you just gotta keep fighting Avenue and working out but yeah I couldn't I couldn't put 100 into the central Club I just had other stuff going on yeah no no no that's fine then and and probably all the times you said yeah this problem I got like I have to put like 100 and I move on to things and I get you used to say you know what get um fascinated with things and I'd be all in on stuff but for once now you can use that for for good with you with your baby and you can be the best dad possible I know like you know when you when you find out the news you was working extra days because you want to make sure you've got that money for that kid and and that's amazing bro I would never question you when or moan that you had to step away for that do you know what I mean this is for good this is a good reason I'm exhausted like because I'm working six days um a week and I'm also working deliveroo um when I can help me so I'm I'm really trying to you know help support our family you know I mean I'm trying to I'm trying to build stable legs yeah um obviously um there's some news you've got with the baby as well yeah are you allowed to go in about any of that or yeah of course um basically um when I found out it was Christmas Eve and it was the you know it was the best news but the most confusing news because we didn't know well we were going to do we had obviously a good few conversations and decided that we were going to keep the kid no you know because we just want to give her a good chance um and then we went in for the scan uh to find out not the gender but it was the gender scan so I think that's about 20 weeks or whatever so um we went to landark hospital and the doctor scanned us um scanned my partner sorry and um found an abnormality with the brain um so there's a millimeter Gap in your brain um which when you're a fetus is there is present and then when you're born that millimeter Gap closes so it's part of the brain development that millimeter Gap the doctor couldn't find right um so they'd be like oh um I'm assuming a bit a bit off here I think you should probably come back for another scan just so we can have a check and but I wouldn't worry too much so me and sat were obviously like um a bear thinking um if it was really serious they would have said they're an animal Syria so we we went off fine we weren't even thinking about it um so we went back in for the scan and then and the doctor scanned the brain and you could see his eyebrows were kind of going up and it was like me and Sasha were looking at each other thinking what's going on you know what's is our baby okay and um yeah this you just basically confirmed that the millimeter Gap unfortunately wasn't present like it couldn't be they don't know there's nothing there um the thing is though when you search early on in your pregnancy the baby is obviously really small and growing so it's hard for them to see such a small baby especially on a two of these scans so what they do is um they book this in for a brain MRI scan so we have to travel to Bristol and we went to Bristol and then we had this MRI scan um and then once we add the results the doctor basically said look you know that this is indefinite now like the 2D scan maybe but this we've had the MRI This and like there's an amble and that abnormal abnormality with the brain um so just just just uh um kind of be clear with this so what so are you saying that the brain is already touching the skull is that what you're saying because if you're saying when there's a meter when they're born the millimeter Gap is in the brain right um like the brain is like it's like a hole yeah yeah pretty much yeah which obviously compresses uh I'm not a scientist I haven't got a Scooby-Doo what I'm talking about um but but that closes once the brain once the baby's born that's like how it normally goes so are they worried that like when when it burns it might like inflate or something or no no so what they're saying is right it's already closed okay it hasn't but so um this is something they see sometimes sometimes it happens um which could be a risk of um X Y and Z once we add the results they have to lay us down all the risks of what this could be um but the doctor said um you know some sometimes children are born with this um and they live a completely normal life and there's nothing wrong with them at all you know they don't even know they've got anything wrong with their brain um so me and satch were it's weird because they're giving you their this information and they're telling this um they're saying um it might be okay and you're just confused because there's no definitive answer you're not walking away thinking yeah the baby's fine and you know you're not thinking about you're not thinking of the baby's [ __ ] so would you rather have them just kind of give you an answer whether it's good or bad like I remember when Kobe flowers was on about talking about Sitting In Limbo obviously his [ __ ] out to Kobe yeah he's all clear right now yeah wicked stuff and that's heartwarming yeah yeah well done and um but yeah I remember him talking about you know situations where you know you're in limbo and you don't know and you just want to know um which is uh now I can relate to more than ever because you just you you want to know well I say that actually my mindset has changed a bit as this has gone on so um me and satch sat down and and said to each other look you know if this child's um is not going to have a good life and is only going to live x amount of time is it you know should we go through should we delay our pain sort of thing you know and and consider um you know terminating the pregnancy um so we were in this situation where we don't know because the doctor hasn't given us enough evidence for us to say yeah we should do you know what I'm trying to say so um anyway some time goes on and we have another MRI scan um comes back um there's like a divot in the brain a new one yeah yeah so basically what they're saying is um the millimeter Gap is not present and there's also on the right side of the brain and there's like an indentation um which means it's not formed properly like it hasn't correctly formed um and unfortunately that part of the brings a very important part of the brain so um it's a case of what the doctor said is a case of we're going to have to just wait until the baby grows a little bit more because he's so small we need we haven't got enough brain to look at do you know what I mean it's not fully there um so it's got to a point now where we're 33 weeks pregnant so it sashes up yeah the baby's kicking um we're um where sorry I should know the baby's kicking we've given the baby a name you know you need a work uniform want to start a clothing brand or maybe you have a football kit that needs a logo printed well if I was you I'd get in touch with the re-inspire printing company don't reforest industrial estate for the finest Printing and Embroidery in Wales I use them for my custom-made Mangini but you could use them for t-shirts hats hoodies and many many other things what sort of risks have they um laid out for you so what what things could you be facing um to be honest when they say it it's like such a shocking fact that I'm the type of person and when you say something this um you don't like to hear it just kind of goes in one ear and comes out the other but um I have got like a list anyway so I'll just I'll say it to you this is kind of what the doctor gave us on the on the first MRI scan is there a name for this um yeah so um is to see the part of the brain that affected is the cavem septi pellucidi right so all these names are proper words I like there's no way I'm going to remember that you know what I mean so but this is what they said anyway in the notes um we discussed the findings and I explained the limitations of the USS and examined the CSP however we next discussed the potential implications of abnormalities of the CSP CC including the associations with ACC and cod with increased risk of risk of underlying chromosome or genetic condition risk of fine motor problems which the doctors brought up quite a few times risk of epilepsy risk of cognitive impairments risk of visual impairments um so you know you're looking at quite serious stuff really um that's a lot of stuff yeah like the baby could potentially be blind in both eyes um have um problems trying to speak you know use his lips and stuff like obviously this means just the way they work and stuff I think as well and then um the second uh the notes on the second um MRI scan um I'll just get those a few as well because obviously this is a that's what we had initially this is a bit more uh yeah so um the repeat fmri has been reported and discussed at the page sorry because I can't breath I can't read it I don't know which ones do they meet it's like the whole thing G but well you ain't gonna be able to I read it all out yeah okay the repeat fmri has been reported as discussed as the pediatric neurology neural Imaging MDT in Bristol I have spoken at Lens with Dr Lux nice name regarding the result in the potential clinical input implications sorry in summary the range of the clinical outcomes include the possibilities of motor dysfunction including speech and the potential for epilepsy pursue that so so so the Bullet dysfunction basically loads of complicated stuff yes I think this is I don't overall IQ association with underlying genetic disorders Cognito uh infection on a scan today the field goals is a large you follow previous sentiles yeah listen look how are you feeling mate look this is the thing it's not I you know I didn't have to read that out for you but also maybe someone's watching this podcast who's going through the same he was going through it you got me yeah so um you know we're obviously we're not we're you know I just I I feel like I'm alone but there's probably millions of people with the same problem do you know what I'm saying yeah and it's like you live your life and you think there's going to be no Pro like you don't think there's not going to be no problems you obviously know but you never expect you know do you know what I mean so this is um you expect that it's gonna Dodge you and just you're gonna be okay but yeah that's it math but I thought my baby boy was going to be all right like me so you don't write it off yet bro listen I'm not writing them on these videos on [ __ ] YouTube and Tick Tock Mike they said my kid would be this and then it's like he's fine yeah yeah you know that's it you've got to hold on well I see you've got to hold on to hope but like I'm assuming you're that's what you're gonna do yeah well this like what I was saying earlier about you know potentially um terminating the pregnancy um I feel like we're past that now like we we absolutely going in for this baby and um the doctor said if the doctor said to us then there's a sliver of Hope then we're sliding in for that four Pelt do you Grammy and we're gonna we're gonna have this baby and whatever it is whatever the situation is it's going to be loved amaze this is what people need to [ __ ] look at me this is what people need to look at and hold on to and see when people go through their lives struggling and thinking that the odds are stacked up against them look at someone like Luca look like they're from doctors this is what they're putting down as near enough certainties and you know he's going through this 100 the same as Kobe did the same as you are right now and people need to look at this and and be inspired by this and like you said if there's anyone else who's in a similar situation I hope this helps them Luca you're a [ __ ] Brave man me and I [ __ ] love you yeah man so um but anyways me and the message this is like the first time I've actually even cried about it because me and the misses I'm not crying like I'm all right but me and the misses have been happy we've been good we've been optimistic and I still am we're still we're still happy we're still feeling good and um yeah we're just gonna keep going in for it man you can't let things like this get to you and uh whatever life throws at you it's it you've got to learn to dodge or to go with it or you know what I'm trying to say it's not about trying to fight that thing that comes against me you're working six days a [ __ ] week you're doing like [ __ ] delivery on your days off you know you're doing everything you can to to provide for this baby and and and and you've gone there telling you uh you know elsewhere if that's not what you've got about telling you other like what you're doing me is you should be an example for a lot of people a lot of people I don't I don't want to be like there are people out there at the end of the day I will have worse who are in a worse situation um and I'm I'm no I know I'm not really anyone special really I just doing what what I think I should be doing and um I just hope that people learn that they should do what they think they should do and just go for their timings propose um how's men with all this what does she do yeah really supportive she's she's taking us in because obviously we don't have a place to live so my house is a bit overcrowled at the moment um so my little brother is gonna have to move a shift a bit into a smaller room yeah my mum's gonna just stay on the sofa and we're gonna have that room young misses and a baby and so we get on our feet um and then yeah so my mum's out my absolute Rock right now she's um supporting us yeah big up Kelly big up a legend yeah she's good um she is a bit more emotional you know anyway I can imagine being pregnant that's just one of the like one of the symptoms but she's overall happy because like we love this baby we you know already we absolutely adore this baby and you know whenever the baby's kicking you know it kicks like mad and he does a little Rollies in her bed in her belly and we love him do I mean so well this is one thing I would say is so they're not saying you know it's not like with some uh babies they say like you know it's not going to survive when it comes up it's going to die or you know I was still there if this type of stuff exactly yours is just saying that it's going to have defects basically yeah and I know you like your love you that's nothing to you like I know that you would love that baby whatever was wrong with that man 100 you know there's some people out there they would probably say well we want to put the baby in this type of world what would you say to those people who would say why are you bringing a baby into this world well I would probably say look me and such we took that risk initially and if anyone else has a baby or decides to have a baby you've taken that risk anyway do you know what I'm saying you you so you've just got to be able to deal with it yeah do you know what I mean so that's a good answer that is yeah anyone you shut the [ __ ] up I said exactly as soon as you put that in the hall you know I'm trying to say you've taken that risk yeah and you should be able you should man up and deal with it yeah straight up and um if you if you struggling to deal with it then seek support because you know it's not the it's not the end is it you know I mean so you just gotta seek support and get the right people around you but otherwise just man the [ __ ] up and deal with it you know 100 anything you want to say on on Lucas baby um nothing much more really I think we we've talked about it quite a bit haven't we um but it is a bit of a taboo subject like you know termination of pregnancies and stuff and um yeah I don't think either or is right or wrong like it is personal to each person um I think see the natural way out do you do you think um it's tough it's tough I'll tell you why it's tough It's because initially me and sash thought that if this baby was absolutely not going to have a chance at Living then we would just terminate it then just to ease our pain just to be just for it to be over yeah yeah yeah maybe not a total chance of living but it's not that is it look there are Miracle babies there are babies who are told all of this that are born and are perfectly fine yeah and at the end of the day you will be kicking yourself thinking what if what if what if exactly so that's what that's why I said the natural way out because like I just think you know 100 years ago 200 years ago when they didn't have that equip like that technology you just see the natural way out okay if it has defects you deal with it like that's my my take you know if they did say 100 it's not gonna then you wouldn't want to put the baby through that we're very blessed that we've got technology like that but you you know just try and I'm with you mate to be honest that yeah you saying that if everyone if that was generally the thought process of like society that is that's just what you do you wouldn't have had that struggle of whether we terminate or not do you know what I mean it's just the way things go so maybe that would have you know said you have a lot of stress like even having to debate that that's a horrible thing to try and yeah yeah well we could like hearing about the process like I feel so sorry for anybody that has to go through that because when when I heard that process it just it just ripped my heart in half because it's not a nice thing to talk about with your doctor you know how how the whole thing goes down um so people that have had to have an abortion and felt they've that was the only way I really really do feel for like I can really resonate with how they must feel right now and there's obviously different situations of why people abort babies you know um not not standing a chance it's just one of them you know there could be people who are having a you know they were raped by their father and now they're having a kid and they don't want to bring that kid into that world there's many different ways yeah of why people have abortions but it's horrible when it's like you know virtually developed there's actually legalities to it so the doctor said you know once you get parts past a certain point of your pregnancy um you would need to be signed by two doctors to say okay this is a situation where you can't do it in Wales can you no you can yeah so the doctor obviously this is well a boy one of the boys had to go to England oh oh oh yeah sorry you I think they can your doctors in Wales can sign you off and then you you'll go to in you know England to have your abortion I you know I'm clueless on that so that might be right but the the doctor did give me um the ultimatum or the option to you know if if you want to go there we could sort of do that um and he said you know if you if you want more information we can take a sample out of Satch's sack at the baby sack sorry and they can see if it's genetical and then um I think he said if you've got a genetical issue um and also this brain issue we're Rising together um it's it's a double bad which is really cool because they normally say when to like um two different ethnic backgrounds slash Japanese Yukon multis like that's like more than likely to be a healthy baby in it is that what they say like I swear they say that I've never heard that yeah if two Welsh men [ __ ] have a baby it's not as well a Japanese people have really strong genes they live they live the longest actually um I'm pretty sure they're one of the uh only uh species they're like races yeah ethnic race whatever and they live the longest they are the longest life expect cute babies as well yeah I can imagine your little boy having a little bowl cut a little jet black ball cat he's having curtains he's having curtains yeah I'm giving him the curtains oh look listen man we're all rooting for you and guys if any of you want to show some support for Luca and his missus I'm not going to set up a goldfish go and go and reach out to him give me some help you know living in the [ __ ] mum's house and I like and and you know doing six day [ __ ] shifts and yeah renting his car out the guy is renting his car out yeah do you know what someone's coming to pick up the car now today and I've left with my mom and my mum needs to go shopping you know I know well hopefully you know when you're next yet again you know the baby will be here it will be healthy and you can bring him on and we can sit him on your lap I want nothing nothing yeah that's it man um what else what is what else has happened since Lucas what else can we talk about there's got to be some things all things being Luke what else have you do anything else no um yeah just ran into my car out working working 24 7. if anyone wants to rent my car by the way um hit me up 30
pounds a day nice it's a nice character yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah I will I'll do my lessons since you have been gone who's been your favorite guest on the central Club um it's a bit of a tough one now I don't know um that's the I asked the boys I was like oh yeah who do you think the best um episode is um what did I Dougie Joyce was a yeah yeah otherwise it was looking to do a part two now as well yeah for the paperworks and stuff yeah well turkey Joyce was supposed to come on originally when I was you know active yeah and um a couple of things happened and he never ended up coming on so the Marvin as well Marvin's meant to be coming down and yeah there's a few let's let's talk about that then because literally as we're talking right now but this will be old news by then but we just watched the decade and Dean fight [ __ ] yeah now mate that was uh I was a bit disappointed I was disappointed in Dean but at the same time I'm proud of Dean because he tried he tried but it was just a mismatch yeah it was a massive mismatch in my eyes I think I don't know what happened at the beginning like something was like long he was like longing and out or something yeah yeah I don't know why I think he was just getting his wraps on but everyone was just saying he weren't showing up what are you gonna say over there yeah I was gonna say forget about that what about Joe cordina's fight how are you talking about that have we [ __ ] cordino man and we had him here and we were like yes yes this guy needs a title fight manifested it did he say that to all the boxes yeah so yeah yeah so we we made that happen yeah no obviously um all right let's let's go through him and Liam Williams obviously lost to ew Bank unfortunately um but I spoke to Liam yesterday actually and he's training away now abroad I think he's in stuttgard for a week so hopefully he gets back up and training again and hopefully we can get him on and you know manifestes future potential fights obviously it was a shame what happened with with Eubank and Williams I think he was just too excited and um yeah I think I think the news got to him um Jacob Robinson lost yeah unfortunately he still was Champion but unlucky Jake maybe next time keep fighting um I had a good conversation with someone the other day this might be a bit controversial I don't know but I had a good conversation with someone the other day and he reckons that Steve Robinson is holding Jake Robinson back like Eubank did like Chris Eubank senior did he's living in the pressures of his dad you know I know you're what you mean by that so like every any interview any comment anything like Jacob Robinson has done Steve's been there he's always lived in the shadow of Steve as well you know his dad was world champion and and and and Steve win the greatest boxer like he just about made it like you know he that's why he's such a great story because Cinderella Story yeah so it's not like he was like technically gifted he is a great boxer of course and I'll take my hat after him but what I'm saying is he weren't even the greatest but everyone like says to Jake yeah it's Jake Robinson is Steve Robinson's boy you know that's what it is it's not Jake Robinson and you know he trains him and he's I think he's in his corner and he's dead at everything but you know that don't mean nothing like you look at Eubank yeah he had his dad in his corner for a very long time and he you know he didn't perform very well as soon as he left his dad then went train them with whoever else whether it was Roy Jones and whoever else he kind of like excelled him into again at the moment yeah and that's what this guy was saying he was seeing his dad's holding him back if anything I think you're always going to be underneath is shot like your your uh your peers Shadow like if your dad's got that name and now wait you're always going to be under the Shadow and so you outshine him um but if you're talking about technical ability yeah maybe you should take take it to a different trainer and just see how it works yeah yeah and his dad should be more encouraging of Life anything I think that's the case of all sports especially boxing you need you know a fresh training yeah I I didn't get that vibe from them that is his dad like you know pushing him or whatever if anything you try to push him out of his shadow if you know what I mean but I think I haven't watched many of his fights but he is getting on a bit yeah uh to be in that realm of Welsh championships and Commonwealth you should be higher than that Jordan I think you should be bowling people over if you're really gonna be a success in the sport uh you know your first few fights you should be knocking people you know you should be getting through people yeah and then you can look uh you know how can I improve my training and stuff like that if you've maybe not shown enough already that he's actually you know going to be a success in this world yeah yeah um Andrew Selby um I I'm a bit I'm a bit lost like you know like obviously he come here and you know I do know there was a lot of stuff with mtk global that's happened with the kinehans he's been arrested and the FBI looking and you know it's been folded I think Tyson Fury is banned from America now now I know Andrew Selby was contracted and he was holding on to like I've got three years left with mtk well that's gone so I think it's going to be hard apparently he he you know he he's been struggling to get his um deal and I haven't seen him as active on online which is a shame obviously you know it must be hard as well his brother's just retired you know there's not much of an age difference imagine you're trying to get into that sport your brother's just retired you've just had a kickback with your contract it's [ __ ] terrible to climbing it Andrew to me has done enough anyway if he leaves today I think yeah he had a no it says he's always going to be that should have Woulda Coulda he's always going to be yeah he could have he is he was gifted and everyone knows he was gifted and everyone knows he was better than most bro people have literally compared him to and I was talking about guys on the street I'm talking about professional boxes Joe and Liam compared into Canelo he is I mean on a skill level yeah yeah no they said if if no they said if Lisa will be if it was Lisa alby's mind and Andrew's worker then it could have been a canal that's what he said yeah I know but they still could you know they still putting their nose in that category do you know what I mean as you know very very gifted and anyone with two eyes can see that kid was gifted yeah yeah I'm not saying I'm not saying these no I'm not saying I'm just saying like it is a [ __ ] shutdown yeah it's like I like and I root for him so much such a nice guy I think he's winning if he's if he I just think he's winning now if he's sober clean happy with his boy that that's that
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